They have all grown up..

Being born in a big family and I mean,REALLY big family(15 uncles&aunts plus 37 cousins) has expose me to variety of people & their habits. And I adore no one more than my precious cousins..
Being the third oldest granchild(mum's side) and oldest grandchild(dad's side) means that I have witness how most of my cousins grow up. From the small & adoreable babies to annoying & hyperactive toddlers and now, full of personalities & ideas teenagers..I have seen them all.

As I often meet them through out their lives, they always come talk to me about their life. U know, their achievements,problems,fears,gf&bf(cough2) and also their hopes & dreams.

Here are some of the examples=

When they are babies:
N:Huuu..*** *****,A ambik mainan N..Dia pukul N..sakit..(crying)
Bfirst: Alaaa..A kecik lagi.Dia tak tau..N jgn nangis yer..Nanti *** ***** bagi N coklat ok?
N:(Angguk2)

When they are toddlers:
S:*** *****, tengok nie..tengok S nak buat ape..
Bfirst:S nak buat ape?
S:(Sambil memegang langsir di ruang tamu)Tengok yaa..S nak jadi tarzan..
Bfirst:(Tiba2 sedar S nak buat apa) S!! Jangan tarik langsir wo(nenek) tuuu!!!!
PRAAAK!
Tempat gantung langsir tercabut.
S: Heheh..(sengih2)
Wo berlari ke arah bunyi langsir tercabut.
Wo:Ya allah,langsir aku..sape buat nie??
S lari naik ke bilik atas.
Bfirst: 0_o

When they are teenagers(now)=
I:*** ******, I tak tau nak buat ape..die bagi cincin sume..patut ke I jadi gf die? I tak minat pun die tapi,kesian plak..
Bfirst: I xyah la kapel masa skolah nie..blajar..tu yg penting..
I:Tp, *** *****,A kapel okay jer..die pun skolah lagi jugak..
Bfirst:( Tak tau nk jawab apa)

N:*****, cube u dgr lagu nie..best..
Bfiirst:(Dgr lagu tu pastu, tiba2 pause kat windows media player)
N:Nape pause?
Bfirst: Lagu apa nie?? Terjerit2..
N:Laa..nie lagu rock la *****..sedap lagu die..play balik..
Bfirst:Hmm..okay..(sejak aritu,Bfirst meminati lagu2 rock..wahahaha..)

Btw,those *** ***** & ***** is what they call me and of course,I won't reveal what is it here.

When I think bout their conversations with me since their were little until now, I just chuckle to myself..yet,I can't help but feeling a little nostalgic. You can see that they influence me in many way and truthfully,when I am with them,dats when my true self will shine through..sigh..So much has changed. Next thing I know, they will go to universities and then,get married. All those childhood memories will be gone and there is no way I can relive through it again.

Dun grow up too fast my dears..*** ***** x puas lagi tgk & layan karenah korg ok.. ;)

*Finals is in another 1 week and yet,I have time to do this..(sarcastic tone)

This is a story of a...

I dunno to whom she belongs to but,she showed up one day at our porch..
Looking at us intently with her newborn kittens..
We tried to talk to her but, she spat at us..
We tried to touch her but, she scratched us..
We tried to play with her kittens but, she growled at us..

"Fine.."
We thought to ourselves.

However,my mum..being the gentlest heart..
Fed her with our leftovers..
She was reluctant to accept them at first..
But,
Gradually she ate them..

Not long after that,
The kittens disappeared.
Dunno where they went..

But,

She was still there..
She was no longer the cat that used to spat, scratch and growl at us..
She purrs,
She mews,
She roll on her back,
She brush against our legs..

She felt loved I guess..
And we, in turn, love her back..

Sometimes,
We got carried away..
And forget that,
She is NOT our pet cat.
She is a STRAY cat.
And she is free to go where ever she please..

I wish she is our pet but,
Due to some reasons..
We can't keep her.

I noticed,
When she is around..
We felt safe.
We felt protected.

Looking at her green eyes..
Make us feel calm.
Stroking her soft fur..
Make us feel our frustration slip away.
Entertained by her antics..
Make us feel the world is not so bad after all.

She come to see us everyday..
And we always look forward to her visits..
She make our porch feels livelier i guess..

One day..
She disappeared.

Just like dat..
She's gone.

We waited.
Days turns to weeks,
Weeks turns to months..

Its time for us to accept the reality.
She's never coming back.

We lost something precious that day..
Why God sent us a cat that took our heart away and then,
Take it back.
I never know..

But I do know that,
Eventhough my family is trying to stay cool..
They miss her..
I miss her.

Good bye, Ember..
Thanx 4 coming into our life.
Even it is just for a while..

P/s: Very busy rite now.
Need some Brompton Cocktail.